This time of year, I've usually got my glasses of reflection on, looking over the goals and intentions I’ve set, the promises I’ve kept to myself, and how they/I have evolved over the past twelve months.
I began the practice of revising my resolutions as the seasons changed, I grew, and my life shifted. This took less pressure off of picking just one resolution vs. making a laundry list of wishes for self improvement at the end of the
year and simultaneously made it more meaningful and realistic to make any actual progress towards self love and self actualization.
For example, at the start of 2017, my New Years resolution started as “Fuck the haters”... extremely eloquent and mature, I know.
Then I revised it to be: “Care less about what other people think”.
It then evolved to “Give up the need to be liked.”
And by the end of the year, I feel like I did just that and I was proud of the work I did on myself and how I impacted others.
Point being: your goals for the year, your intentions for finding and making meaning, and the promises you keep to yourself can be revised and refined on the daily and throughout the year.
Last year, I set the intention to do more things that scare me (but won't actually hurt me).
As I learned more about myself and what I actually wanted, i made that more specifically: to make better choices to take better care of myself and consequently, to keep working towards servicing others by becoming the best yoga teacher I could be.
By fall, I realized that what I had actually done was be unafraid of uncertainty - and more forgiving with my short comings - and more comfortable resting/going slower.
I didn’t always do that perfectly on a day-to-day basis, but bit by bit, the choices I made about my career, lifestyle, and how I chose to spend my time shifted seismically from start to finish.
Now that I feel slightly more comfortable and even confident being myself and doing what I do, this coming year, I’d like to strike a better work/life balance to make my time working more effective and my time living and exploring - well, more. I’d like to share what I’ve learned over the past few years with different / larger audiences.
I’m sure more will come of and from that as the days and months go by.
But for now, I’m okay with not being certain, not being liked, and loving myself enough to let myself fall asleep at 3pm sometimes. And I think that’s a pretty good place to be in the here and now.